Bella The Babysitter: Chapter 25

Bella the Babysitter

Chapter twenty five

Edward Cullen POV

"Forget it, the wedding's off." Bella screamed throwing the nearest thing, a large wedding magazine at the kitchen door in frustration. "I can't believe you would do this to me Edward."

"Calm down baby. Please." I tried to calm her down but she refused to let me be near her. "They showed up this morning I didn't ask them to come. I know your hurting but it's been almost three months Bella. If they're here, it obviously means they are trying."

"Try? You're a fucking lunatic." she cried. "Try would have been coming here the day after she said all that shit to me. Making me feel bad because things came a little easier for me than they did her. Make them leave Edward. Please."

"I can't do that." I shook my head. "They are your family Bella. I see that your hurting every day, every time we finalize a plan for the wedding and you can't call your best friend to let her know."

"I do. I call Alice." she sniffed defiantly.

"Alice is your future sister in law and a good friend but she isn't Rose baby. Please just sit down with them and see what they have to say. If you don't like what you hear then I'll ask them to leave the property." I tried to reason.

Lucas was sitting at the kitchen table in his highchair coloring with animal shaped crayons. Every now and then I would see him lift up his drawing and comment in his garble. He had a pair of headphones on listening to his Disney channel play list on Bella's iPod. Thankfully he didn't seem to notice that Bella was having a meltdown.

"No." she sniffed. "Tell them to leave."

"Bella." I sighed.

"Don't Bella me. I have better things to do than listen to what they have to say after all this time Edward Cullen." Bella shouted loud enough for our guests in the living room to hear. "I've been planning my wedding and raising Lucas as best as I can so I'm sorry I don't have time to hear their pity party."

"Bella. Just five minutes that's all I'm asking for."

Why in the hell was I sticking up for them? The people that had made my fiance miserable and practically alone? The ones that had her crying at night in the bathroom when she thought I was asleep. Oh right. The reason I was doing all of this is because of what I saw when I opened the door to fetch the paper this morning.

"I can't believe you would do this to me Edward." she snapped rushing past me but I grabbed her arm and swung her back to me with a small 'oomph'.

"Please don't ever call off the wedding. I'm sorry but I really think this would be the best thing baby." I kissed her forehead. "I love you and I know that you still love them so go in there and try to be civil."

"I'm sorry." Bella sobbed wrapping her arms around my middle. "I'm just stressed out with the wedding plans and everything and I haven't been sleeping and ugh. I'm just a mess."

"You're my mess. I love you, now go." I patted her butt towards the door causing her to giggle humorlessly.

She stopped at the door and turned back to me. "Will you come with me?"

"I'll be right here baby." I pointed to Lucas bobbing away as he picked up another giant crayon.

"Bring him in the living room please?" she begged. "I just don't want to go in there alone. Please?"

"Alright." I picked up Lucas along with the entire highchair causing him to giggle madly as I carried him into the living room and set him beside the TV so that he would have the light from the lamp on the entertainment center to color.

Bella followed me, grabbing my hand as soon as I was finished setting Lucas up and pulling me over to the love seat across from Rose and Emmett. Her eyes hadn't even moved towards the couch and I could tell by the grasp she had on my hand that she was close to loosing it.

"Bella." Rose said calmly. "Emmett and I came here to apologize to you. But I think I should go first. If that's alright?"

Bella didn't answer her, instead finding great interest in the paint chipping off of her pinky nail. I could see that Rose was already getting emotional, wiping tears off of her cheeks as she stared at her friend. I bumped Bella's shoulder with mine but she just shook her head minutely and I knew that she wasn't ready to talk yet. I nodded towards Rose silently telling her to continue.

"I had no right to talk to you the way I did that day Bella and I'm so sorry." she sniffed pausing to blow her nose. "I was having a bad day and you were just an outlet."

"Bad day." Bella scoffed still refusing to look up from her lap. "Isn't it funny how I'm always the outlet when someone is having a bad day?"

I knew she was trying to just hurt Rose but her words also hurt me. I had taken my bad day out on her previously, the night that Lucas got sick and the first day I felt something more for her.

"I'm a person too you know? I'm sick of people thinking that they can just take out their anger and frustration out on me. Especially after not talking to me for months. I didn't do anything but try to get a hold of you and that's how you treated me? I didn't even get a 'Hello Bella'. Nope instead I just sat there and waited for you to come meet me for you to belittle me and make me feel lower than I already had." she ranted still looking down at her hands.

"I'm apologizing Bella." Rose cried.

"Your apology is a little late don't you think? I needed you to be my friend and my sister, to tell me that you were happy for me. I've had to do all of this by myself now leaning on Edward's family because mine is gone." Bella sobbed running her hands over her cheeks. "You had to have known that I was already feeling insecure about the situation I'm in. Living off of Edward with nothing to contribute to our household. And you fed on that. You used it against me making me feel so unworthy of what was waiting for me at home.

But you know what? As soon as those words came out of your mouth I realized that I was good enough. I have that little boy sitting over their to raise. He calls me momma because that's what I am to him and he loves me. I should thank you, but I won't."

"Bella." Rose gasped her hand covering her mouth.

Bella's eyes raised to the glass coffee table. "What? How can I be so cruel? How can I speak to you like I am? That's exactly how I felt that day in that coffee shop Rose. Your no better than me so stop judging me."

"Alright Bella." Emmett said clearing his throat and speaking for the first time. "We are here to apologize. Rose shouldn't have said those things but she can't take them back, she can only make it better and she's here so that she can try. How about hearing her out?"

"Oh shut up Emmett." Bella snapped meeting his eye with so much hate he cowered back into the couch. "I was there at that game shop almost every fucking day before Christmas because I was trying. Even if Rose needed space for whatever fucking reason she had, you still didn't call me, didn't come by. Why was that?"

"Because I'm pregnant Bella." Rose stood up showing off her giant belly.

When I had opened the door this morning it was the first thing I saw and the only reason why I allowed them in from the cold.

"Your pregnant? That's your excuse?" Bella scoffed running her hand over her forehead. "You've got to be fucking kidding me."

"I was working longer hours and stressed because of my work situation that I didn't realize I was late." Rose explained sending me a apologizing look. "I collapsed at work one night during a thirty six hour shift and when I came to they told me that I almost lost the baby. I was surprised because I didn't even know there was one. Emmett came in a few minute later because they had called him, he's my emergency contact. I told him what happened and he just turned around and walked out of the room."

Emmett paled and looked down at the coffee table in shame.

"They kept me for three days and he never came back." Rose sniffed. "I couldn't call you because I knew you would be ashamed. One of the last things you said to us before you moved out was that if we got in this situation that he better make an honest woman of me and he just left."

"I was scared." Emmett interrupted, his voice full of apologetic emotion. "I left the hospital and went to work."

"I know sweetie." Rose patted the top of his head.

Bella slumped against me taking everything in. "Is that it?"

Emmett sat up a little straighter. "I didn't want to bring you into our problems Bella. When you would bring little Luke to the shop I wanted to escape the drama for a little while. Rose and I weren't talking once I did go back home."

"But your together now?" Bella interrupted.

Lucas pulled his headphones off and started to call for her and so I got up and brought him back to the couch. "Let's try to keep our tempers and language in check please. Little ears."

Everyone nodded and Rose sat back down awkwardly. "After you left the cafe I went home. I was upset and Emmett just so happened to be there."

"She was crying hysterically I thought something was wrong with the baby or something." Emmett finished. "Then she told me she was upset because of you. She didn't really tell me anything but I got her calmed down enough to sleep and that's when Edward called."

I quirked my eyebrow conveying that I wasn't going to apologize for my actions during that phone call.

"We have some issues but we're working it out for the sake of the babies." Rose explained rubbing her stomach.

"Babies?" I asked curiosity getting the best of me.

"Yeah we found out a couple of days ago that the reason why I'm so big at only six months is because there were two."

"Two boys." Emmett answered proudly.

"But we're not here to talk about the babies." Rose interjected. "I'm here to earn your friendship back Bella. I want what we used to have."

"It's not that easy Rose." Bella grunted when Lucas climbed into her lap. "That's probably not the answer you were looking for but it's the truth. I've lived my life trying to make everyone else happy and now that I've learned that I matter too, I've grown up."

"Up." Lucas cheered smooshing Bella's cheeks together and giving her a sloppy open mouthed kiss.

We all laughed softly at his cuteness before Bella sat up. "It's about time for Lucas's lunch before he lays down for his nap."

Rose and Emmett perked up a little, obviously thinking that Bella was going to invite them but she looked down to Lucas and continued. "So I guess it's time for you both to leave. Edward will see you to the door."

And with that she got up with the baby in her arms and headed to the kitchen. Rose, Emmett and I sat for a second clearly confused by Bella's actions. Rose was the first to move sending me a blurry smile as she stood up and grabbed her coat. Emmett got up and helped her get cozy before I followed them to the door.

I gave them a polite goodbye and Rose turned to me. "She's not going to forgive us is she?"

"It's not my place to answer that question." I answered truthfully. "Drive safely."

I closed the door softly before they could say anything else and grabbed the highchair before heading into the kitchen. Bella had Lucas sitting on the counter holding a potato in his hands while she pealed another one.

"I hope your in the mood for potato soup. I've been thinking about it all day." she turned to me and smiled widely.

"I'm up for anything your in the mood to cook." I shrugged.

"Well take Lucas upstairs and change him, it will be done shortly." she gestured to Lucas, who was gnawing on the potato he had been holding.

I grabbed the stinky boy and walked us out of the room turning around to find her still smiling as she pealed the potatoes.

Later that night we cuddled on the bed going over our wedding plans.

"So far we've got my mother, father, brother and Alice. My grandparents, my aunt and uncle on my moms side and their two daughters. Ben and Angela as well." I read off my invitation list. We had talked about it and decided to keep it a low key intimate affair.

"Oh I forgot about them." Bella frowned her brow furrowing. "I have my friends from Phoenix that I still talk to Jessica and her husband Stanley. Deputy Sam and his wife Emily and their two kids Leah and Jake. Leah can be the flower girl, she's about four or five so she'll like it. That's it."

"What about-" I started to ask but Bella cut me off.

"Our wedding is for close friends and family. Jessica has been one of my friends since I was very young. Sam and Emily were very close to my dad, he's practically my uncle." Bella answered. "So no."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes Edward." Bella threw her folder off the bed and climbed into my lap. "I want to marry you and complete our family. I'll be opening a whole new chapter in my life and maybe that means it's time to close another chapter. I'm not going to shut them out completely but they have their own stuff to worry about. They can be my acquaintances. I have my family with you and Lucas and your family. It's time to move on."

"I love you."

"I love you too."